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                                                                  some drawings from march - may

the sketchbook heroes during my early days with nude drawing

many times people questioned me about my purpose of drawing

i feel that the way i'm approaching 'drawing' 

is to release my inner tension, 

i do not focus when i'm drawing most of the time

drawing becomes an act, a pivot point of creation

usually i catch what seemed only appropriate at the moment 

and release it on the paper

i have never intend to draw out the details or to follow the proportion or scale

i draw to relax to put it that way, 

to be out of touched, 

every piece of work that is done, was effortless, 

straining no energy when working on it

sometimes working with nude models for 12 hours and more ain't tiring at all

it can go on forever even without meals, 

it just seem like a hibernation from reality

only if you were to request me to draw again but from imaginations

or from photographs, i wouldn't be able to produce it like my current sketches

i'm not a good drawing student, was never good at drawing even realistically

not anywhere close to art academic standards...

the way i portray my drawings are momentarily only

each present moment, i draw a character beyond each nude figure 

i see it beaming with life, on the expanse it was dancing

the soul appears from the bodily figure which i can feel it strongly

i do not draw the static poses of the actual nude model

i do not follow guide books or estimations with fingers while drawing

i try as much to get away from there, it's like escaping

running away from academic structured poses or drawing techniques

each drawings were less then a couple of minutes in creation

constantly aware of the light-headedness within me while working on them

that's why i'd always look forward for nude drawing class 

which were too, initiated by students outside of my art campus

they were very lovely in fact and keen, eagerness overloading

no lecturers were involve to break or intervent the freedom of expressions

we were on our own, we rule our worlds  :)

i still can't wait for each session which happens every tuesday night,

to be out, to chill somewhere beyond self, to relive the out of body experience

i draw for nobody, not even for myself, but what i get out of it is the feeling of 

i was never here, i was forever happy

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happy, 

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