PASSAGE OF TIME

i've taken so much (uncountable) pictures through the past weeks for documentations
 and am lost of where i should start from... 

cutting down a little on blogging thinking about if i should really penn down my thoughts here

and which ..sometimes i do feel insecure and do people really bother, if so... 

always looking forward to the new weeks, and here's to the spill of today!

let's start from the more recent ,

my literal heart to heart talk diary on this blog

this is an edit i did for myself through the passage of time,

nevertheless if you had read and follow my post on instagram or even read my tumblr,

i'm always lying or loathing in the abstract plane of reality, i've never felt more home 

and comfort in dealing with the abstract ideas of the heavens and the journey in one's lifetime

so this is it!

no matter what i picture, be it in the restaurant, the seaside, in new clothes or with good companies

we travel this lonesome and delirious journey with our very own vehicle ( body ) and our beliefs

through these years, i've studied intensively that

people crave for accompany, often misjudge feelings and creating endless doubts,

when both means good in anyway for the comfort of others and also themselves

..is the reason why i opt out and choose to stay resilient against, to feel nothing from mental conflict.

it's human to feel, it's human to feel to suffer, it's human reaction

there's a strange notion is that i try not to feel human everyday after studying it through,

instead transcend these human emotions, find sanctuary in transcending them.
( eg. when you know you're gonna be upset through rejections, transcend them.)

these feelings are unnecessary and that the repetition of it leads to even greater misery

(eg, accept rejections, accept abrupt disruptions, speaking the truth in detailed manner,
accept each situation without a blame or cause, study the collections of moments through synchronicity,
digest each feelings, re-read through continuous self analysis,
 find salvation in negativity and bring out the light,
 immersing ourselves in all manners of environments and to reflect upon the resulting experiences)

get out of the circle of whirling emotions

all emotions renders destructive or if not exploitive

we exploit happiness that's for sure.

when we transcend we feel nothing from it, 

not happiness or saddness or any emotions that could describe.

instead gathered a wholly amount of universal energy

in self-awareness to realize

realizing is not an emotion

is something... between the thought and a feeling 

to top it all ~~ the first picture is a representation of  my journey of self awareness

hence depicted in the sky (for easy understanding)..

photo : zk

i've stopped painting for sometime and been working out on fitness very frequently in preparation

for the ultimate endurance test for the next two years this coming september

entering military which is compulsory in my country state.

these weeks have been nothing but amazing adventures once again 

my journey for my art making had literally halt

and is going for a pretty long silent break till the release.

my picture taking and the recollection of youth moments 

is my current focus now. on instagram - orsqr

hint : take more pictures before we physically agedd!!

ciaos,

orsqr







music  ~  Burn - usher 



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looking forward  to my early 20s  -x -